yesterday was a day when everything should have been the best. and it was so good. because
Last night we made Mothers Day Dinner. Smoked bbq chicken, (the best chicken you will ever eat) potatoes, creamed corn, whole wheat rolls (made by yours truly), greens, salad, and sweet tea (which I didn’t drink) and southern peach pie.
Mothers Day Breakfast for my Mom and Grandmama Jean was Cinnamon Rolls, Cheese Danishes, Eggs and Bacon, and wonder Coffee (that I didn’t drink) and Orange Juice. Roses were on the table and we used the lace tablecloth and fancy china.
After that we drove across the state to see Mammama, (Daddy’s Mom)
We got there and I was happy and excited, then I went inside and started hugging everyone and saying hi, and all the sudden, i dont know what happened, but i started to panic, about nothing as usual, I ran outside and changed out of my dress into shorts and a t-shirt and tried doing something normal like breathing, but it didn’t stop, so i saw my brother josh sitting alone outside on the swing and i went and sat with him and started crying and he started crying too, and i was like dude, why are you crying, and he had ate his steak and like hurt his tooth or something and was fake crying to make me laugh, which worked, so im sitting on the swing half laughing half crying and my cousin Carley comes outside to look for me and try to talk to me. And I’m trying to look like I’m fine because my uncle came outside to smoke a cigarette and he was looking at us like we were outcasts because we weren’t inside.
So josh and carley started talking about their love lives and made up all these ridiculous cards, like the “K card” or lipginity, about kissing, and the “H card” for holding hands, and the “C card” for cuddling, and so on. I started laughing at their ridiculousness, and started breathing like normal. and pretended to cry and be sad because Carley had lost her “c card” and was growing up.
I went inside and wasn’t able to make eye contact with anyone, but i wasn’t shaking so much, and i got some food and went to sit in the dark dining room alone because the living room and kitchen were too many people looking at me.
So I ate and ate and ate
steak. salad. baked potato. creamed corn. the most amazing macaroni and cheese in the world, like we are talking 6 different kinds of cheeses, it was better than the steak, rolls, vegetables, and i did drink sweet tea, (but i mixed in lemonade so it wasn’t like that much caffeine. and i was fine) Carley and Michal came and sat with me and uncle mike talked to me about salad dressing.
The dessert I brought was a black cherry chocolate cheese cake and Daddy came and told me I needed to put the lid back on it and put it in the car and take it home because i didn’t want the family eating that. and I freaked out. i have never tried the recipe and i just made it and brought it. which normally i don’t experiment on the extended family. but I did. and then they assured me he was joking and he said that because of how good it was. so I calmed down.
after I ate i cleaned the whole kitchen and mopped the floor, cleaning helps. and i cleaned a lot. like. i just kept cleaning. and then i went out on the trampoline and pretending to be 12 again. it didn’t work. my back is too messed up for that right now. i watched my little sisters swimming and tegan playing fetch. i walked through the neighborhood with daddy, ben, michal, and caleb to try and find a way to get to the lake. we weren’t allowed to go through peoples yards.
I went to visit my Uncle Johnny, who had a stroke last December and i wasn’t able to see him, and Aunt Missy wasn’t there either, but I saw uncle billy and aunt barbara. they were so happy for visitors, and played with Emily and Kelly and a couple rabbits they have.
I helped clean some more and talked with my cousins for a long time. just about normal stuff like tv shows and boys and clothes and gossiped about other family. it was nice.
then i watched iron man 3 with my brothers some.